נפש ערומה

"you never refuse to help me. You never refuse to help any one. Why do you do it?"

"to redeem myself"

"what does it me"

"I don't know at this point

"am"

"At some point I get that I've not even done something wrong

and it's not that 'the world is evil', it's actually great and amazing, and wonderful.

but I don't belong here" he looked at her hoping she'll understand

"every where I go eventually I find myself losing. Every war I start.

At some point you don't look for happiness, belonging, contempt

at some point you just learn to appreciate the struggle"

"I am nothing as a human being beth. I am a low life scum from the most unholy place in the world.

And even there I'm nothing.

You will leave this place and find a job and meet a guy and you'll have just great life time. But I can't have that. I wouldn't even know how to enjoy such a thing.